Caught In The Middle

Fearless warriors in a picket fence,
reckless abandon wrapped in common sense.
Deep water faith in the shallow end,
I am caught in the middle.

I currently live life in the middle, and I hate it.

I am not content with sub-par. "Ordinary" does not satisfy me. "Just okay" is never good enough, and "Oh well," are not words in my vocabulary. Yet, that is where I live at the moment, and it's driving me insane.

I'm caught in the middle.

Somewhere between the hot and the cold,
Somewhere between the new and the old,
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle,
You'll find me.

Somewhere between the wrong and the right,
Somewhere between the darkness and the light;
quite simply, I am
Caught in the middle.


I am not a middle dweller, yet here I am, setting up camp in Somewhere Ville, which is neither Here nor There. I can handle not being There as long I know that Here is behind me and my travels will get me to There. I can handle not being Here as long as I know that There is but a distance away. But oh no, as of now, I am neither Here nor There and it leaves me frustrated. How long can one tread water before they get exhausted and drown?

Too much darkness, not enough day.

Too many nights watching the smoke alarm flash while sitting snug on the ceiling, fulfilling its purpose in life; contentedly blinking.

Too many mornings wasted while recovering from watching the smoke alarm blink late into the night.

Too many phone calls from people that can't their job done right the first time, toying with my life as if I'm some puppet on a string; robbing me of time and pleasant brain space.

Too many days caught in the middle.

Some people accept what comes to them, as they float along on their little River Life Raft. And some people have purpose and direction, they were meant for something more than living life in the middle; floating just doesn't cut it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4WN37XYqrmY

I need fresh wings. Ahh, freedom...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LAZpkLhJDfo&feature=related