Numb

See this? This is me:


















In this space. Staring at the wall. Empty. Numb. Just like this space:














I read yesterday that running is better for depression than antidepressants. I set out to do 8 miles yesterday, but that wasn't enough, so I upped it to 10. After the last hill, I decided 10 was enough and reluctantly came home.

Running is a great drug.

Next week the running group is running to the neighboring town. 13 miles it is, me thinks. Even though I have new running shoes, I think I need another pair. My feet ache after I run. I have lost 10 pounds since I bought these shoes, less than a month ago, and now my feet feel differently in the shoe. I think I've got another 5 pounds to get rid of, so maybe I'll wait to get a newer new pair of shoes.

I don't know. I don't care. I'm just numb.